Many days have passed since I have written.
Today is a happy day. I come with message of hope. I want to tell you that there is a possibility of getting better.
I have been well for over 8 months now and this is the longest symptom free stretch I live so far since I got ill.
It might not seem much. But my Dr. told me that after 6 months without bipolar symptoms I should start feeling less worried. It means I could start relaxing.
I want to tell you my medical regimen – I take 750 levothyroxine daily and supplement with omega 3. No more antidepressants, no more anxiolytics.
Bipolar is not treatable with those.
I do rTMS now as maintenance, at least twice a year.
My treatment has been life changing but it would have never been possible without the help and daily support of my family. My amazing father and my husband nursed me like a newborn. They believed in me; they knew I would get better. I am blessed to have a very solid support system with my immediate family. My mother in law took me in like her own daughter.
But in this post I want to thank one person specifically- for without him, I wouldn’t have been able to make it.
Hassan – you are a saint. Your patience and love were and are unconditional.
If I am alive today it is because you trusted my judgement despite my illness that the medial system as it is today is wrong yet still fought for a solution.
Night and day, with the children around us you would make me laugh, juggling work and trying to find a way out of this endless night.
Today, I would like to say that I am simply happy and no longer depressed.
Thank you for your endless love and unconditional love.
You were my sanity when my thoughts were gone.
You taught me that impossible does not exist.
I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone who reached out during these difficult times and wrote to me or called me. Each and every single message brightened my day and made a difference; you wouldn’t believe how much.
And now… let me end my post by a quote from Rumi “ whenever we manage to find love without expectations, calculations, negotiations, we are indeed in heaven”