One day that started like any other I discovered that both my ovaries and hormones hit the postmenopausal stage.
You would think that you would have the time to transit, to digest it, to say your goodbyes..
You would think that your last period would be a celebration with the words “finally” shouted over and over again.
You would think that you would throw all these pads and tampons away and say “good riddance”…
Yet, this whole stage was as brisk as missing a train by a few minutes. One day you think you are young, next day you have the hormones of a an old woman.
All the stigma, the sitcoms, the jokes, the religious connotations flood my mind.
It is really the M word? Is this it ?
Will everything from now on be downhill?
First thing I blame is society followed by the internet, then biology.
This poor female body of mine, tortured by period cramps requiring painkiller shots at 4 am, these tears that wouldn’t stop for days before menstruation … The food-cravings, the stigma, the tender breasts. The pimple outbreaks and unruly hair…
Then comes sexuality and virginity, followed by another spike in hormones during pregnancy.
A body that undergoes so many changes… expanding, contracting, opening and closing, going through cesarean and vaginal birth, breastfeeding, leaking, with stretch marks, scared, and scarred …
But a woman’s body is magical. It is beautiful.
And so is her mind…
To undergo all these changes and more.. To have the capacity of producing life, and more importantly of sustaining it.
I am ok with with menopause. I think it is just about the timing.
It is too soon for women to reach it in their 40’s. We have just figured out what life means. We have just figured out how to manage a family and a career. We have just thought that everything is supposedly under control.
We had to deal with the monthly visitor for half our lives and now we have to deal with an unwavering one.
We need to come to terms with nature and change yet again. We need to prove to ourselves that it is ok, that we will survive and ultimately be fine. We need to do all this while in control, with all other duties fulfilled.
We need to do this in silence, without drama, without shedding a tear. We need to be content and grateful. We need to be happy that we have reached this stage and that we are finally not going to worry about getting pregnant.
Instead of painkillers now we will be prescribed calcium and hormones. For those of us who are fancy and can afford it, they will tell us don’t worry you can have a natural therapy instead.
I know that somewhere very near or far, a woman just like me is going through menopause. I know that you also have had or are having your doubts or feel and felt scared. I also know that there are millions of women warriors across the globe who have done all this and that and are now grounded and serene.
To all of you queens out there I salute you. I am in owe and admire what you have done and keep on doing. Do tell us that everything will be fine. Talk about the good side of change please, help us your fellow women not be trembling believing this is the end. Send us hope from the other side of this hormonal rainbow. Just please tell us everything will be alright.
To be continued