As I smoke the day’s first cigarette, I wonder…
It has been decided yesterday that I will be hospitalized tomorrow.
Dread is all what comes to mind. A new place it is, specialized in mood disorders.
The ward I will be occupying will have 6 patients. Six individual rooms isolated from the outside of the hospital; from the outside world.
I worry about small details; will the room be warm enough? Will the charger reach my bed? Will they let me out to smoke?
I also worry about visitation rights. It is no prison I know, but there will be strict rules to follow.
How long will this stay be? When will I graduate to the open ward, where I will have access to the courtyard and the cafeteria? Will I get permissions to go out? When will I see my children again?
Soon enough all these mundane questions will be answered, and other ones will surface.
I will write as much as I can….