dreaddrɛd/

verb

1.

anticipate with great apprehension or fear.

“Jane was dreading the party”

synonyms: fear, be afraid of, worry about, be anxious about, have forebodings about, feel apprehensive about; More

2.

archaic

regard with great awe or reverence.

“the man whom Henry dreaded as the future champion of English freedom”

I dread my visit to the psychiatric in a few minutes. Been procrastinating all day about it. Didn’t want to leave home. Pretended I could forget it. Pretended I can change the date; call in sick. But I know I can’t do that. 

Don’t want to reduce my intake. Dreading tomorrow…