The one thing that scares me the most is me

I am unpredictable and unreliable, not to others only but to myself

I fear me

I fear my thoughts

I fear my feelings

I fear my inability to take decisions

I fear my lethargy

I fear not falling asleep and fear waking up

I fear my reactions my over reactions my under reactions

I fear others and what they think of me and what I make them feel

I fear responsibility and lack of it

I fear expectations

I fear feeling no joy and equally fear my melancholy and joy when I feel it

I fear being asked how I feel and having no words to give a logical explanation

I fear the misery I cause around me everyday

I fear how fear understands me and I cannot reciprocate